Self development

As for me, I dont really get in touch into self development untill the age of 25.
To me , to develop myself is to attend courses, to get the knowlege and thats all using the cert from the course to get a better job, thats all.

And I really HATE study, and I don read books, I only read magazines. For years many many years, i don read book espacially story books,book that provided me knowlege.
Untill year 2008 , my cousin jacklyn ask me to get this book TUESDAY WITH MORRIEs -mitch albom. GREAT!!! You know what , I took almost 1week to read finish the book, and guess what I am proud of myelf cos i donT even touch story book and its the first story book since so many years of not reading /or i Can say i choice not to read,yet i finish reading the story and i read twice,three times. Since than I go to MPH/Kino to get great books and I force myself to read at least once per week. Its a habit that I want to have .Its hard in the beginning but what really keeps me goes on and not give up is THE LIFE I WAN TO HAVE -a gal who live day by day aimlessly. Cos I believe everyone should have a dream/goal.....
Maybe to some of you, its nothing you can even read three books a day.Really as for someone like me don even give myself a chance to read something which will enriched my life, i really regret that i bascially wasting my time on things which dont do me good yet i dont even gain from it.

Since then i start to make my life more enriching I attended courses like POE, and even found a website that I fallen in love to it.

Its "SUCCESS UNIVERSITY"

Its a website that open my mind up, and I can improve my life thru it.

Since than, I start to LEARN how much I donT know in my life and the range of training programms which save me tonns of money$$$$.

LIKE WHAT JERRY CLARK'S SAYS

Dont ask for life to be easy, ask for life to be worth it.

Failure cost a Millions but Success cost Pennies
You can pay the price of success or you can pay the price of failure, the choice is yours.

Fate to be friends

LAW OF ATTRACTIONS

The Law of Attraction in the Thought World

THE Universe is governed by Law - one great Law. Its manifestations are multiform,
but viewed from the Ultimate there is but one Law. We are familiar with some of its
manifestations, but are almost totally ignorant of certain others. Still we are
learning a little more every day - the veil is being gradually lifted.
We speak learnedly of the Law of Gravitation, but ignore that equally wonderful
manifestation, THE LAW OF ATTRACTION IN THE THOUGHT WORLD. We are familiar
with that wonderful manifestation of Law which draws and holds together the
atoms of which matter is composed - we recognize the power of the law that
attracts bodies to the earth, that holds the circling worlds in their places, but we
close our eyes to the mighty law that draws to us the things we desire or fear, that
makes or mars our lives.
When we come to see that Thought is a force - a manifestation of energy - having
a magnet-like power of attraction, we will begin to understand the why and
wherefore of many things that have heretofore seemed dark to us. There is no
study that will so well repay the student for his time and trouble as the study of the
workings of this mighty law of the world of Thought - the Law of Attraction.


FRIENDssssssss


I do believe in this strongly................

In Life, we will meet lots of people ......like friends<>

For me , yes in this world ,we do meet lots of people all day long , and to make a friends its quite easy as for me. How to start making this stranger, to talk to u or even got him/her attention, by

AN EYE CONTACT -----A SMILE----- TO A HAND SHAKE.

But how to really goes on to a friendship / buddy it takes time, effort and fate.

Do u agree on this???

As for me , to have a friend to accompany u thru out ur life ,ups and downs needs effort and time .

To really get to understand and know each other takes time,to have the same fequancy also makes it work well.
Like for my Chung Cheng High School Friends



They are my 5 A class..yr 2000... Most Fav Class in my secondary school life.

20 Charming Guys, 3 Beautiful Girls.....lol ChEErs!!!

and also Peishi (my shopping kaki)

Like for my Lasalle SIA sch mates...



They are


Cynthia (the pretty one who everytime goes hungry...ooopps),

Yenling (like big sister and I give her full respect and everytime with her big bag ),

Diana (a very trendy lady who works and play hard)

Jieru ( she is the one who always full of ideas,fun and funni jokes)

Iri (ha this one SHOPPING QUEEN!! always shop till broke)

Jean(this one ar far away from spore, she is at malaysia but our heart stays as close as before)


....This are the few pretty babe really make their efforts and their precious time to make sure that we meet up at least once a few month . Keep update each others hows their life ,work, health and love life etc....Everything under the sun/moon/stars.


PS: Gals thank u so much making time for this friendship,I am glad and happy, feeling so fortunate to have u all as my sisters...........MuCkS!!!



Wish all my friends Good Health and Wonderful Life ahead..



LOTS OF LUV ..........xinyi

Life

11 aug 1983 ,Time 0x:0x

Name of the baby: Chen Xinyi

Hospital: Thompson Hospital Singapore

Born in Singapore , This child is not a citizen of singapore at the time of birth

Doc: This baby having Jaundice need being kept in the box (incubator) for some medical attention and need blood transfusion immdetaly!!!!

U can hear babies crying, parents giggling, and god smiling. ... .. ... ... . . .

This is the day I came to this world bringing joy to my family members( dad mom grandma aunties uncles cousins etc....)

LoVe : U

This is the day U make ur parents dream come true......
Ur Birthday is the day u bring joy to ur parents....

Death

Nightmares in my life.......Ammmmm......... how should i start here, let me tell u a story of mine own which happen to me 8 years ago when i am in my teen age of 17,18 ....My life change in this one year. My first encounter of death in my teen age, where my friends were enjoying their prime age. When teengers go out shopping, friends outing ,buying things which is in trend-FASHION.... Don care about anything or even anyone.Go out clubbing wasting money on drinks and drugs..For me i running up and down looking for money ,closing my saving accounts to get the money to pay for hospital bills and lawyer fees....may not be a lump sum of money, but its almost like 70k...ammmm if for other people they would had spend it on branded bags,nice beautiful shoes and clothings.

Heres my story

My dearest grandma,who suffered from liver cancer .When she was diagnoses on the beginning of April 2001.



When we brought her to hospital to had a scan , we found out cancer lumps is growing in her liver.



Doc : ''She have only 1 mth left. ''

What will u do when u have only 1mth left, who will u wan to meet badly before u leave this world, what will u say to ur love one before its too late.........

To me ,I have only this much time to fufill her dreams, her wishes and to stay by her side .

Did I do my job ? The answer is ''NO" I cant .

She dotes me alot and it really hurts to see her suffered from the illness,fighting against cancer all by herself and yet I am totally helpless,watch her day by day getting weaker and weaker. I still can recall how she dozed off while she was having her dinner,she is so weak and yet she tried to keep herself awake to accompany me.

When i was in my primary school life, despited how bad is the weather she will take a bus and all the way from circuit road ,where she stayed with my cousin .Everyday almost everyday she will made her way to fetch me from school and get me nice lunch, to make sure that i will not being starved.When she is already 70+ ,80 years old.


I can say I was always being shower with loves.LOTS of LOVES from her. I will never forget how she gave me her love without asking anything back>>>






Mine story is not yet finish , on the first encounter of death, dont know why, god wants to put me to a limit that I need to face all this again on the 9 march 2002, not yet 1 year ....Times ticking....

My dad, things doesnt goes too well just before my grandma passed away also happens in the year around april 2001, my dad met an accident and lost his left eye sight...Totally blind..Went through op yet still cant see.


Doc : ''He had teared his retinal badly and we dont have ways to replace it"


.......in my heart what should i do...should i quit school.....

My dad was the only breadwinner at home.



..My grandma was asking for my dad(son) where is he.We lied to her ,saying my dad went oversea to work. My dad can't let her know that he had this incident, cos my grandma is getting weaker by days, she will be leaving us anytime.Its not the right time to let her worry.


I losses battle to illnesses and my pay off is a price which i dont want anyone in their life to pay as what i did .I losses battle and what I pay off is my love ones and once i lost everything including their love, care and the attendace of my dream future wedding.......which to me it might be the greatest day I never had in my life, but I know this dream of mine having them to attend this important day of mine will never happen and it will never happen.



She passed away peacefully on the 29 April 2001 in the morning...... I love u Ah Ma

As for my dad, he suffered from hepatitis b ( those who are reading this yet you haven got your jab for hepatitis b ,do contact ur family doctor and get the jab ASAP)

He had a relaspsed on 2002 New year time, he falls sick.

Hepatitis B Symptoms
Half of all people infected with the hepatitis B virus have no symptoms.
Symptoms develop within 30-180 days of exposure to the virus. The symptoms are often compared to flu. Most people think they have flu and never think about having HBV infection.
Appetite loss ,Feeling tired ,vomiting ,itch all over the body ,pain over the liver (on the right side of the abdomen, under the lower Ribcage)
Jaundice - A condition in which the skin and the whites of the eyes turn yellow in color
Urine becomes dark in color (like cola or tea). Swelling of the abdomen,
Stools are pale in color (grayish or clay colored).

He was sent to SGH A&E 04-03-02, he was so weak until breathless. The doc examined him, the outcome of my dad's situation is bad really really bad.He need to sent to NUH 05-03-02, as he need liver trasplant ASAP.For me , i cant do anything, and nothing i can do.I feel hopless really hopeless.

The next day 06-03-02, the doc told us (me & my mom ) if my dad dont get a trasplant ASAP, we might lose him as his liver is swollen up twice the size of a normal liver.He was running a high fever, panadol yet cant control his temperture.

07-03-02 He is very very weak and yet doc had not do anything to make him feel better, tehy said he had this called- Hepatic encephalopathy (excessive sleepiness, mental confusion, and in advanced stages, development of coma)

08-03-02 My dad was sent to ICU as his condition is very critical ........he already in the stage of coma....... At night my dad had Vomiting with blood than followed by Bleeding from the nose, mouth.Doc tried their best to stop the bleeding cos my dad now having internal bleeding, but they just cant stop. His heartbeat once was as fast as a runner, than it slows down.......................

The Doc prounced my dad as BRAIN DEAD , and ................................
He passed away on the 9 March 2002 in the morning.......................... I love u Papa

I did cried when i wrote this story , even its had been passed for almost 6yrs.I really hope that everyone of you will cherish ur family and do take good care of them as i am so regret that i didnt took good care of my dad and lead to this outcome.

Do put effort on taking care of ur health cos once its gone its gone forever...

GOD BLESS